Tuesday, October 31, 2006
A tiring day...
Today was super tiring for me.. slept at about erm.. 4plus.. 5am.. woohaha.. doing some updates and typing things.. i was over confident abt myself.. tot i can 'dong' today.. i was wrong!! i couldn't wake up.. got to take a cab to work.. almost died at work can.. needed a coffee..but in between there wasn't a lot of time for me to walk away and buy.. so i tot nvm 1st.. today was a little busy.. and exciting.. that's what i liked about this job.. time flies!! compared to the previous job Bakerzin i had, i would have died there in such a state as today.. as time felt like it stopped when i was there.. no grudges against the pple there.. maybe it's me lah.. sick and tired of working there.. but didn't change the job as i was too LAZY to look for one.. so the more i stayed there, the more i dun like there.. i also dunnoe how to explain why.. is it cos i felt like i was being exploited over there?? maybe.. is it cos my heart is just not there? maybe too.. be it whatever reason, pst once mentioned abt having a great attitude in the workplace, in the marketplace, alrite i admitted, my attitude indeed sucks big time over there.. *i repent...Due to lack of sleep, my head hurts big time.. and such a coincidence, angie was sick too.. looking at her state, i tot alrite, maybe mine is not so bad after all.. jiu ren ba!! thank God the pain went away after popping one panadol... pst ck shared a really strong word to the helpers this season.. so challenging, so mind-provoking, words so sharp that you can actually sense it cutting through the hearts of the people who were present, including mine.. he talked about being strong and courageous, if we have the spirit of God, the resurrecting spirit of the holy ghost, then anything we touched should be revived.. he made it super clear that this place could no longer have any room in containing excuses.. he repeated again, emphasized and double emphasized that christians should not just be nice and kind.. that is just the basic requirements.. we got to be strong and courageous in doing things, not just having love, but mixed with faith, cos love requires change.. not just having pity on that person.. how much, how badly you want to change the person next to you? and the list just goes on.. the rest of rest, i dun think it's very suitable for all the readers here..cos it's really not for the fainthearted.. cos even i myself felt like fainting in the room just now. But i know, this season is changing, it's no longer where we used to dwell in and if we don't change and renew our mindset, we could not move forward, and worst still, we might even backslide.. And so.. i'll leave the rest with you readers to think about it.. #.# tired.. *yawnz...
DayS of XY's LIFE.
10/31/2006 11:44:00 PM
My 1st paper.... and it's....
hi guys.. i m here again.. after a few nights of mugging.. alrite.. i confess.. didn't mug as hard i should and i regret.. was at mac.. with charlotte.. and most of time i was spaced out.. haha.. 
checking out char's hp, she wants to xchange with mine during the holidays.. :)sounds like the name of the cafe that we met up with kenny at the katong shopping centre.. anyway... before i digress to a faraway planet.. basically, i wasn't very happy with the paper today and i felt like depressed can.. wondering if i would every make it.. i can't afford to fail this sems.. it is my last lap already.. if you were here in my family for the past few months, you would have imagined the stress and the burden that my parents placed on me.. if ever i can't make it, i seriously dun wan to think about the reaction that they are going to have.. well.. today's like one of those where negative thoughts filled your whole mind that you could just open up your brain and pour it out onto a plainfield.. and thousands of acre are not even enough.. Well, i tried to convince myself that perhaps things are not that bad and everything's under God's control.. i know it is.. even if things weren't my way, God is still going to provide me with one that certainly will lead me out. Anyway, went to Kenny's place to do up some of the pla-cards for the upcoming Boys Brigade carnival that's going to be held at Tao Nan's.. sounsd exciting huh? i've got a change to flaunt my aritistic skills.. haha.. well, at least Angie appreciated my artpiece.. ate, and talked and fellowshipped..watched this Mozart show.. who many of you dunnoe who's Mozart?? (ok, nvm, dun raise up your hands..) at least for one moment, my stress and worries were lifted up. Be it i liked it not, i still got to move on for my second paper which is like on next wed.. it's going to be my last too!! T.T but i dunnoe why i just can't seems to be very happy and excited.. help.. can someone just come and help me?? Haha.. ok.. not bad lah.. can come here and vent out all my frustrations.. hope you guys wun mind ok.. on second tots.. why would you.. cos tis is MY blog.. only i decide what comes up here.. heh.. of course, at the end of the day, only God has the ability to lift me up from where i am. The theme/topic that i need to dwell on this season is this word "Visions". After a talk with Kenny, yupp.. i need to renew my vision for myself, my ministry and every aspects of my life. Do i really know what i REALLY want and where i want to head to in life?? Hmmz... Let me pray about it and i'll share with you guys again.. if appropriate for the faint-hearted.,. haha.. tata.. (*.*)
DayS of XY's LIFE.
10/31/2006 01:37:00 AM
Friday, October 27, 2006
Wo de di yi ci *blushes*
ok.. it's my second attempt on writing a blog.. initially i kind of resisted this kind of thing.. cos i m too lazy to write down what happened and what's on my mind.. i mean c'mon.. it's faster to speak it out rite?? (a lot have commented i speak like a machine gun tho') haha... anyway.. due to the increasingly influx of blogs everywhere around my life.. especially those little friends of mine.. those from the sec1 gang... you know who you are lah.. haha... before i forget.. thanks to fionn, who helped me find the blogskin on little mermaid.. cos i told her..tt's my theme... in case you dunnoe.. or you dun bother to know.. my name, besides xiuyi, it's also ariel.. of cos, i chose it not cos i like the mermaid, cos from what i found from the internet, it also meant "lion of God".. **ROARS** hahaBut anyway, let me continue..for those who will visit my blog or are readin my blog rite now, thanks for your support, hope that through here, you'll get to see another side of xiuyi and of cos to exchange our ideas here.. provided if you've any constructive ideas.. well.. destructive also can.. if it catches my attention.. ha.. So, just to update what's happening in my life rite now, basically, i'm running out of time (exams are coming, but my time is split among work, studyin, ministry and sleep), finances (which now things are picking up at quite a steady rate) and of cos sleep (from a non-coffee drinker, if you dunnoe, i hated coffee, till now i can't live without coffee, i dunnoe is it the work of my sub-consciousness, i think i will fall asleep without coffee!!). And as time is nearing my papers, the 'illness' of gorging is appearing in my life again.. can you believe it?? in today's dinner alone, i ate laksa, after which less than 30mins, i ordered a mc nuggets student meal and then, ate just 1 prawn dimsum, and then ordered 1 ice vanilla latte from starbucks.. wow.. i was just tellin my friend charlotte (who went studyin with me today, i dun have imaginary friends) that i think my stomach seems to contain a lot of things.. which i dunnoe how am i gng to bring it home..One thing for sure, i will 'lao sai' either tonight, in the middle of the late night, or tmr mornin when i wake up, if i can wake up early.. and not to forget to mention, i think i m gng to put on like dunnoe how much weight lor... i weigh myself every day, so that i noe how to gauge whether should i cut down or wad.. but then before 8th nov, which is my last paper, i dun think it's possible for now to hear that my weight will decrease any further.. (c'mon those people out there, who gorge when you're stressed, you know what i meant, so dun say why i dun have self-discipline to control myself) it's not easy to be disciplined to not have discipline ok.. i m trying.. if you can't see.. wow... if you don't know by now, i can be quite a contradiciting person tooo... cos in the 1st paragraph, i was just saying i m too lazy to write.. and here i am, writing essays.. soon to become a world-recognised novel.. haha.. if one day i could earn money like this, i dun mind too! alrite.. gotta stop now.. i could write all night long, but i guess it would bore you pple.. and also to study already..before i get too tired to carry on.. no time already!! 3 more days to my 1st paper..
CHeers.. also, angie!! pls take care of your health lah.. dun eat so much Mcspicy le.. tho it's nice.. but whatever could go wrong will go wrong.. so pls take care of yourself.. cut down on the chocolates and whatever you've been eating but no one knows about it de.. heh..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
10/27/2006 04:21:00 PM
