Sunday, February 11, 2007
I've been a coward.. not able to face wad i can't solve.. tryin to pretend everything's gng to be okay and live in my own world.. alrite.. it's so typical of me.. the more i look at other's problems, the more i am sad.. feeling helpless when i dunno how to help them.. isn't my job supposed to help them to lead a better life? so where's it?
i felt more 辛苦 den i was in the previous state.. hearing congrats where it's supposed to feel happy..but the feeling is more like of a contradictory kind, not that i regretted coming onto this route, but the sense of you are not maximising of what you need or when the situtation is going downhill instead..i guess it's hard to feel so excited and happy at all.. Sometimes i just feel like what the song 隐形人 is singing, wanting to turn invisible, to hide what's inside of me..
I'm feeling very inadequate.. HS i need You more and more..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
2/11/2007 03:18:00 PM
