Wednesday, March 28, 2007
lately i really felt like a poet.. maybe it was insired by the Lord.. i dunno.. but i hope to write down whatever was my feelings and thoughts at that time.. The chinese one is the 1st one..'can i?' is the second.. so.. this third one is called~~
COVENANT
I turned to God
Enthusiastically said: “look what I’ve got!”
Riches, fame and glory
HE looked at me and felt sorry
Are these all?
Is that what you prayed and hoped for?
I pondered for a while
And let out a loud yell..
YES!
After some time
Like the prodigal son
I moved to the place of the swines
Feasting at what I thought was the best
But actually it was a level down from the rest
Feeling a little lost and empty
Like a child anticipating some candy
But life at that point is really that all, sadly
Like a faithful and loving FATHER
HE led me into HIS cuddles
Smiling and wiping off my tears
He spoke into my ears
This covenant that is between you and me
I promised I would not leave
Through sunshine or rain
As you called, I came
Smelling HIS breath, hearing HIS heartbeat
I pray time would remain as it is
I looked into HIS eyes
I promised to lay down my life
This time
Through sunshine or rain
As HE calls, into HIS presence I came
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/28/2007 02:46:00 AM
today had a great meeting.. bs with pastor .. learnt how to be a good shepherd.. baa baa.. he prayed for me.. i realised.. what i gave to my mbrs.. i need it more myself too.. what he prayed was so true!! and we had the honour to experience the holy laughter today.. the joy of the Lord!! heh.. i was crying and laughing at the same time.. actually i can't differentiate myself too.. pst said.. it's not just another good meeting we have and just go away.. it's a covenant made between us and God..
A covenant is something that even when we feel weak.. inadequate.. when we gave up.. when we walked away.. when we deny Him.. HE'll still remain faithful to us.. that's how God is!! Always gently gathering us to HIS wings and protect and love us..
Easter is coming soon!!~ 2 weeks more.. let's fight a good fight can? let's proclaim and confess the harvest to come.. and that requires hard work.. it's time for me to roll us sleeves and work.. no more slacking.. no more looking up at the harvest and say there's 3 more months... it's NOW or never!!~~
Gary cao Ge..
i quite like his songs.. didn't like him initially.. alright lah..he's quite talented.. and he has good voice.. heard him sing super high and low pitch.. it's quite difficult leh.. if you lead songs before.. hah.. realised he's quite cute too lah.. hee
alright.. i confess.. i have a fetish for good bods lah.. ha.. but that's not the main reason why i like.. it's just one of the reasons.. so presenting his song to you.. 保护你
跳着你的心跳 抱着你的拥抱
爱最深多深 我不知道
沉默什么都好 心里什么在烧
幸福那么少 我竟然得到
月光太冷海浪太吵
我把你裹进我外套
这双翅膀不飞了
因为守护你最重要
这一生一世让我保护你
就算跟世界成为敌
当你把手紧紧放进我手里
怎能不相信世上真的有(奇迹)
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/28/2007 02:02:00 AM
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
wah.. today is kind of a fulfiling day.. went ikea after work.. with some of my 7-sis.. and of cos.. we acted like some idiots trying to have fun over there..
Mices.. VS.. e little black spider...
Shark tale.. shark tale.. shark tale.. arggghhh
Frog vs Dragon.. of course.. i win..
Say cheese.. cuddling the pillows.. arent they colourful..
Rated NC-18.. she's trying to seduce me..
Our prizes for the day.. heavy lah.. so we waited for a cab to get home.. hmmz..
the whole evening we walk.. and we walk.. till all of us were tired.. char tryin to decorate her room.. while i plan to tidy up my room.. and i bought a mirror..
ya.. you didn't see wrongly.. i am wearing the SUN t-shirt.. heh..
this clock is a little special.. as i m determined to wake up on time.. so it's time to really invest in an ringing clock.. however.. it works on kinetic energy.. meanin.. u need to twist some turns on the back to keep it moving.. it doesn't work on batt.. troublesome.. just like some of us.. we can't move unless someone is always to twist and turn us upside down.. sadz..
and after that.. i packed my room.. for 4 hours... 4 hours?! yes.. 4 hours.. cos my room is literally a rubbish dump.. so i gathered and threw away those unwanted stuffs.. which amount to 4 big packs above.. i wonder.. i think.. my room is a reincarnation of a rubbish dump.. hah.. super tiring.. very..
but the end results so far is not bad lah.. tho not very very clean.. but compared to the previous state.. i dun ask for a reward.. but at least give me some applause and a pat on the back.. *i heard it.. thanks.. ha
hmmz.. my study table.. last time can't see the white layer .. cos used to be covered with stuffs..
the side of my room.. alright lah.. i am still quite satisfied at how it looks.. geez..
So at least today i did somethin productive today.. and i can tell you.. i am very very tired.. so update again.. byezzzzzzz
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/27/2007 03:12:00 AM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
heard this song from may-day... and i liked it the moment i hear it.. it's about falling in love again.. and it's talking about first love... well.. it doesn't have to be a real BF-GF thingy.. but it can also be between you and God!! Had a great cgm last week.. where we prayed for the joy of the Lord to fill us again.. Most of us were touched.. including myself..i knew God was there.. renewing the pple.. it just brings me back to the fact that we really need God no matter what we think or how much we deny Him.. cause it's truly in His presence that we are able to find rest and peace.. And suddenly you are pumped with such great faith that everything is possible!!
so ya.. I'm In Love All Over Again!
歌曲：我又初恋了
每一次从爱里离开
就像是心被切一块切一块
下次再也不敢放胆爱
谁知道主歌才一半
桥段都还没唱出来
就突然你的出现爆破了悲哀
难道我又我又初恋了
不可能我又我又初恋了
可是真的真的初恋了
这一种feel
我又真的真的初恋了
我爱你你爱我
我们再也找不到藉口
就像是第一次
一起飞著爱情的自由
我爱你你爱我
我们再也不需要藉口
又一次初恋了
就算降讲有一点荒谬
谁在乎喔
我吃了铁牛运功散
因为我内伤
好犀利好犀利
你的魔力真的好犀利
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/25/2007 02:02:00 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
CAN I?can i let go of what God has placed in my hands?
can i say i want to give up? can i really do that?
can i go back to becoming just a normal person?
even though i know my life would worsen..
i tried, i really tried..
but there's no more passion..
no more to offer, dun wanna e pple to suffer
is it like selling away my birthright?
to many it might not seems right..
once i told someone i would not run away from the FATHER
are there any ways for me? for now, it seems no other..
initially i felt aspired to be the next peter
but now i felt suffocated as a leader..
every week i tried to serve sincerely
but it was out of obligation honestly
ministry should not be like this
i felt otherwise at least
so now,
i want to return back what originally belongs to HIS
can i, can i, can i?
BY: Your Beloved... XY
I posted this up not to discourage pple but to let the world know that no matter you are a leader, pastor, young or mature christian.. there'll be a time where you feel discouraged or tired and want to give up.. Actually.. sometimes i feel i m like David... in psalms.. he wrote about when he's in despair.. when he's discouraged.. when he's happy.. when he's talking to the Lord.. and the list just goes on..
basically.. what i feel is it's not a shame to share how you feel.. i mean last time they also blogged.. just that they blogged in a bible manner.. haha..
but at the end of day.. what solution steps you took..
is God in that solution step???
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/23/2007 09:13:00 PM
was reading one of my fren's blog.. she mentioned that she felt lonely.. that this thing called love is very far away from her.. maybe a lot of us felt like this a lot of times.. or maybe still are in the midst of feeling it.. but how many of us actually understand that ...
Love is a not a feeling.. doesn't mean it's not there if you can't feel it..
Love is not an emotion.. cos it will fade away if you don't maintain it.. does tt mean it's not there anymore?
Love is a decision.. to make a decision to love and be loved.. and most importantly to know that you're being loved..always..no matter what happens.. no matter what you feel.. no matter what the world brings or hurls at you..
Maybe it's easier said than done.. that's why.. it takes a decision..
to tell yourself that you'll walk out of your world and step into one with love and care..
Believe.. have faith.. even tho now it seems like nothing is happening..
when you take the 1st step.. you'll be amazed at the next.. cos HE's taking it！
And with it.. i actually came up with a passage.. or do you call it a poem? a tot?
It's for those who are feeling a little lonely or that love is very far away from you.... Be blessed..
有些时候爱可以在很靠近的地方，
可是我们总有错的意识，
觉得爱一定要轰轰烈烈的，
要很做作的，
要很明显的，
要很大声的。
但其实真爱是很容易被忽略的，
它不喜欢做作，因为它知道你很真诚地对待它。
它不喜欢在很吵杂的地方徘徊，因为它怕你不会轻易的找到它。
它只喜欢坐在这里，静静地等候，
它试着很大声地跟你呐喊，它想要接近你，
它不管你做过什么或拥有什么成就，
它只要跟随着你，因为这是一个使命，
不管风吹雨打，是不会改变的。
从十字架的时候开始，
它跟自己说，它会跟着你，
不管多少的堆掉，多少的失望，
多少的我不值得，多少的我感觉不到，
多少的累，多少的我想要远离。
它一直在这里，默默地等你.
可是你知道吗？
你听到吗？
寂寞的你愿意做个决定，
伸出双手，拥抱它吗？
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/23/2007 03:52:00 AM
Monday, March 19, 2007
i m quite persistant ar.. for dunno wad reason, blogger.home can't access for now. But there's something in me that i need to get it all out, so here i am, at yahoo.mail.. lame lah.. but later i m just gng to export it to blogspot...
Now time check. It's 4:57am in the morning.. *gasps*.. why am i still not sleepin?? nah.. not insomnia.. i just woke up.. can you believe iT? Cos i wasn't feelin so well lah.. with blocked nose and sore throat.. i just felt like taking a nap.. somemore with e NKF show.. nothin's interesting on tv.. not tt i condemned tt show.. i really tried watching it for the 1st few mins.. i tried to tell myself it might be interesting.. but after the segment on Fiona and Jeff.. i was like er.. ya.. i m sure it wasn't easy on their part.. it looks tiring.. but.. i dunnoe.. it's just me.. it doens't appeal to me at all.. so i slept at ard 8pm.. ha.. back to pri sch days.. hey wait.. even during pri sch days..i slept earliest by 10.. hmmz..
Today met up with chyuan, she bought her new hp at bugis.. she asked me to acc her for a while.. so tho e weather is hot, i wasn't feelin so well.. i m not exaggerating.. even crossing the road.. i felt like fainting.. e queue at M1 is suuper long lah.. heyz.. it's just some offers.. not giving off free phones can.. So chyuan bought tis Nokia 8665 or 8770 or aiyah.. wadever lah.. cant rem e name.. i m bad at it.. it's some sliding phone.. after tt she went off to meet her relatives and i m off to ntuc to buy groceries.. ya.. i noe wad u r thinkin.. is it your weekend life? chyuan was like.. oh my.. you so fast go into the mid life of buyin groceries le ar?? heyz.. my mum asked me get some toilet papers lah.. u mean when it's finished.. u guys dun use TOilet Paper but Newspaper meh? chey.. next time come my hse.. dun use the toilet paper i BUY... use your own newspaper u buy.. ya.. call me petty..
Anyway.. was just thinkin abt my own life and i realised i was kind of emo lately.. i cry very easily.. it scares me too.. due to my late habits.. my fren got pissed off tt she wanted to go home.. and i shall save e in between story.. it's tiring repeating and repeating.. my frens got it videoed down anyway./.. ha.. i was so helpless and scared.. ya.. right in the middle of the Bugis fountain there.. when i met up with another fren.. why was i like tt.. it's not as if someone died.. i just dunnoe why.. tis is the 2nd time i did tis.. tis year.. i hugged my fren and cried.. ha.. like filmin some shows.. after tt.. e 1st response.. u got tissue? is my mascara smurched? *correct spelling? haha.. you just can't hide the 1st instinct of a woman.. we are beauty creatures.. my frens also asked why do i break down so easily.. hey i really dunnoe too lah.. i tink is it because as the years go by..i get more and more emotional or is there a spirit of depression? i definitely hope it's not the latter part.. geesh.. sounds scary..
*hungry* only ate a burger.. a pie and abacus seeds (suan pan zi) e whole day..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/19/2007 05:12:00 AM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Good sat-day.. how's yours?? hope it's good.. cos mine wasn't so bad after all.. haha.. tryin to say some encouraging things to myself.. as i told my another fren.. no matter wad.. 这世界会变的更美好.. telling to her tt.. means .. i got to tell myself tt too.. well.. i do practise it at times.. ha.. anway.. tis week is pst phil's weekend.. he shared a great word.. but how many actually enjoyed it.. some said it's too 'un-understandable'.. some is too preoccupied with their own world tt.. mayb can understand.. but switched off.. well.. one told me it's good tt some became more responsive.. but i m still not satisfied.. i was still unhappy.. cos wad i wanted is willingness.. and tt in turn will come responsiveness.. God doens't need obedience but it's mixed with unwillingness.. i can imagine HIM saying.. take away your obedience.. i dun need tt.. anyway.. need to do some hse-cleaning again.. tis time round.. in the hse of God.. clean=good.. ha..
So after service.. went to changi airport with yiqin.. we ate burger king.. nan de.. no meeting.. can avail my 100% to them.. always feel very guilty.. when got to go away after a while.. but ironic tin.. is when i m free.. e rest are not..ha.. anyway.. both of us wore green top with black jacket.. pple said we look like a couple.. and indeed..even wad we ordered is the same.. haha.. took some pics. .. enjoy!!
Hmmz.. wad shd i eat???
Waiting for train to get home...
Smilez.. you're on candid camera...
On the train.. dun we look alike.. i mean our colour.. but den.. one young one... one mature one.. ha.. nope.. it wasn't arranged..
2 mushroom swiss.. e pie is not mine.. it's hers.. haha.. man.. i broke the rule for dieting.. haiz.. but i had diet coke.. does it help??
When 2 friends meet..
Apparently.. my fren tot it's quite hard to communicate with someone.. like.. 10 years younger den u.. i noe u are reading tis... yes it's YOU.. she's quite disgusted tt her peers had her cousins(13-16 years old) as frens.. in frenster.. msn.. etc.. haha.. but i realised when u put away tt 24 years thinkin.. and began to tink like they do.. communications do happen.. yiqin is 14. . ya.. and i'm 24.. ha.. so is the rest of my mbrs.. 14.. boy.. tt's why i got to keep up, to look young and feel young.. and it works.. heh..
Today fellowship was great.. haven had tis for a long time.. with my mbr.. not just carnal talks.. yucks.. i do hate tt at times.. too much of it harms the health.. but really opening your heart and talk deep... i do hope in future.. it will happen more and more.. cos tis is wad cg is all about.. mayb along e way... fellowship got twisted.. but now.. i want to put into place..
Posted some pics of my colleagues and myself too....
Presenting e Customer service team from Citibank!! e pple behind the scenes.. slogging away..
Joyce and Dylyn- e two MArcH bdae babies!!
Josephine- my very good fren from phillippines.. she's very warm and sincere.. and she's like a big kid.. even tho she's older den me a few years.. but den.. we can click very well!!
Jane- she's my another khakis.. she just came as a new staff.. Another one i can share with..
Shirley- i like to hang ard with her.. we can chat like crazy young gals together at times..
Hazel - e 'smiling' gal.. mayb some of u noe her..haha.. she's always wearing a smile on her face.. and she's super nice to me.. phew.. really very nice.. haha.. help me in the job and gave me stuffs all the time.. like my big sister!
Ekio- e one who guided me all along and taught me a lot in the job.. i m extremely grateful to her.. like my mentor.. like my mum.. hah.. her attitude and passion in her job just blew me away..
Sam- known as samantha.. just came.. so not very close to her yet..
This is the grp of pple i mostly hang out with.. ha..
Celebrated bdae last tues.. e 'zhu jiao' is the one in e middle.. wearing stripes...
E guys from the sales team.. e bankers.. and relationship managers.. from left: Ben (who craps alot.. super funny), Shawn (always coming to Fu lu Shou to buy some idols stuffs..very devoted ar) , Shien (not his christian name.. he's yue shien.. so short form lah.. he's another one i can click with.. he's super cute at times.. haha)
So presenting to you my week !! good bye...
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/18/2007 12:04:00 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
i know that lately i've gained back the weight that i lost.. wanted to diet but failed.. haha.. as usual... but today i really really made the decision.. need to wake up early in the morning to run.. i know some of you are sniggering off.. haha.. wun happen one lah.. how will xiuyi give up her favourite food? and most impt.. how will she be able to wake up EARLY in the morn.. well.. today someone came and literally gave me a tight slap on my face.. have you had someone coming to you and said... you're really fat... you really fat leh.. plump lah.. tho quite pretty.. but den.. jiu shi fei lor.. wah.. tt's it.. tt's e full stop to my FAT history.. anyway.. thanks for such great determination...!! it works.. Rrrrrrrr.....
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/15/2007 09:09:00 PM
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Happy Yuan Xiao Jie!!
Today is chu 15.. e last day of Chinese New Year... Hope everyone had fun.. receiving Ang Baos and visiting relatives.. was at home the whole day, wanting to make some desserts.. taught by colleague.. some banana with sugar, wrapped in popiah and fried!! sounds like Singaporean Goreng Pisang.. but actually she came from Phillippines.. she was a very nice colleague.. greatly missed.. as she got transferred to Paragon branch to work.. and it tastes really good.. she made some for us before she left..
but before i could continue.. went down to support SUN's fan club event gathering.. was quite late.. but i had the privilege to listen to one of her song
'拥抱'. it's really a very nice song.. i was quite touched by the whole tin.. from lyrics to the melody.. the MC was saying this song is talking about each of us, yearning for a hug, yearning for someone to come and love us and understand us.. cos in this broken down world.. esp in taiwan, as the economy wasnt doing so good.. a lot went into depression and some families commit suicide together to improve situations.. so do get an album when it's out.. knowing that it would bless you greatly.. (and of cos.. above comment is by myself.. personally only.. no one else involved). i signed up for the club and got a SUN ez-link card free!! after the whole event.. had some light refreshments for all of us.. i also ordered for e t-shirt.. it looked really nice.. will be getting it in ard 2-3weeks time? i guess..
had some photos taking with Yiqin and lixin.. e rest didn't make it.. due to some mis-com in between??
My beloved members----Yiqin and lixin..
Want some?? i tink i looked really old here.. heh
Me and qin..
Greedy qin.. she must be really hungry.. haha..
Delicious..
the free SUN ez-link..
got a free poster too!! i like her new image.. esp her hair!!
Yesterday had service before i went for my company dinner and dance event.. service was kind of exciting.. with most of the pple couldnt make it.. and they went for sun instead.. only qin and greg came.. tis prob needs to get out soon.. and for how.. pls sit back and relax.. will let you know again.. ha.. i tot the whole group went into hibernation.. dunnoe wad's tt? it means.. a period of time.. when certain animals.. they just sleep thru the whole winter as to survive the cold.. of cos.. during the sleep.. you dont see anyone.. neither do they know wad's going on as they are in their own world... however, it came to my surprise when one actually saw the prob and pinpoint it out.. it occured to me tt the more i need to do something abt it.. cos in the kingdom of God, there can't be a split in between, between the interests and visions of the people.. having cg tmr instead as wasn't feeling so well on fri.. asked yq to help me pass down the msg.. but actually at the end of day.. how many do exactly ask and care for you.. if you're alright.. not tt i would die without all these.. but it just showed me how many lives have i exactly changed and impacted and the love level in the cg.. if they can't do it for their leaders..wad more between members.. or vice versa.. makes sense?? But even when the rest of the pple chose to forsake their calling and destiny, God would raise up a new generation of pple, who are willing to stand in the gap and say i'm willing, send me!
phew.. alright.. shall not go into much details.. but tis week sermon is good.. progressive commitment.. we need it man.. it's an appropriate msg for a time as tis..
My dinner and dance was great as i won the early bird award.. haha.. ironic.. cos i was very late.. e tin started from 630, i was only there at abt 830.. and the moment i sat down, they called my name and i went huh? haha.. not sure wad is the prize, it only stated hamper.. will share with you guys again when i go and collect on .. erm.. wed?
alrite.. my fingers are tired.. ha.. shall update again tmr!! cya!!
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/04/2007 08:56:00 PM
Mices.. VS.. e little black spider...
Shark tale.. shark tale.. shark tale.. arggghhh
Frog vs Dragon.. of course.. i win..
Say cheese.. cuddling the pillows.. arent they colourful.. 
hmmz.. my study table.. last time can't see the white layer .. cos used to be covered with stuffs..
Waiting for train to get home...
Smilez.. you're on candid camera...
On the train.. dun we look alike.. i mean our colour.. but den.. one young one... one mature one.. ha.. nope.. it wasn't arranged..
E guys from the sales team.. e bankers.. and relationship managers.. from left: Ben (who craps alot.. super funny), Shawn (always coming to Fu lu Shou to buy some idols stuffs..very devoted ar) , Shien (not his christian name.. he's yue shien.. so short form lah.. he's another one i can click with.. he's super cute at times.. haha)
