Friday, March 23, 2007
CAN I?can i let go of what God has placed in my hands?
can i say i want to give up? can i really do that?
can i go back to becoming just a normal person?
even though i know my life would worsen..
i tried, i really tried..
but there's no more passion..
no more to offer, dun wanna e pple to suffer
is it like selling away my birthright?
to many it might not seems right..
once i told someone i would not run away from the FATHER
are there any ways for me? for now, it seems no other..
initially i felt aspired to be the next peter
but now i felt suffocated as a leader..
every week i tried to serve sincerely
but it was out of obligation honestly
ministry should not be like this
i felt otherwise at least
so now,
i want to return back what originally belongs to HIS
can i, can i, can i?
BY: Your Beloved... XY
I posted this up not to discourage pple but to let the world know that no matter you are a leader, pastor, young or mature christian.. there'll be a time where you feel discouraged or tired and want to give up.. Actually.. sometimes i feel i m like David... in psalms.. he wrote about when he's in despair.. when he's discouraged.. when he's happy.. when he's talking to the Lord.. and the list just goes on..
basically.. what i feel is it's not a shame to share how you feel.. i mean last time they also blogged.. just that they blogged in a bible manner.. haha..
but at the end of day.. what solution steps you took..
is God in that solution step???
DayS of XY's LIFE.
3/23/2007 09:13:00 PM
