Monday, April 09, 2007
hmmz.. actually i've blogged e 1st part in my office.. and it's left in the desktop over there.. oopss... i m not eating snake.. really not much to do at times.. my workload is seasonal.. ha
anyway.. just thinkin what to pen down today.. one of my disciplers once said i m quite easy to read thru.. as a person.. my facial expressions, the way i talk, the way i behave give away what i m feeling or thinking at that moment.. hmmz.. true to only a certain extent.. ha.. if you know me deep enough, i dun tink anyone else does (except God), i m a born actress.. not saying i m a hypocrite.. i m as real as i can be.. but then dun you realise there will be times even though you hurt on the inside, when it gets rough or unbearable, when tins are totally upside down in your life, but on the outside, you still got to be strong? not saying to put on a front all the times, but den just like what the book of the proverbs says.. a wise man will hold back his emotions, not let it out anyhow.. in a way, sometimes we can't just let head rule our lives.. just do what you feel like it or want it to be.. and sometimes circumstances doens't allow you to.. i really tried following that verse... maybe i went over to the extreme.. i tried to numb myself with things that are not right.. hoping that i dun feel as bad as i shd.. but deep in my heart.. i know God knows and i can sense HIM at work whenever or wherever i m/dng .. HE always come at a time.. when you tot you are falling off the cliff.. when you tot there's no way to turn back.. when you told yourself.. give it a last chance.. and this decision is it.. nothing can change it..
but till now.. i can't deny that GoD can.. HE comes in a special and gentle way.. HE didn't strongly enforce onto my own will.. it's just so gentle.. like a wind blows.. HIS love and presence is still something that i can't run away from.. your heart just melts automatically and your will changes by itself.. of course, to the good path.. tt's why, i m very convinced, there's no heart too hardened, too cold that HE can't touch.. i experienced it myself..
**destiny tied strongly .. covenant once again proven unbroken**
When i didn't expect much, GOD gave me more abundantly.. when i went off, HE guided me back by HIS ways..
EASTER is over.. it was great.. drama to the carnival to everything~~ we had 14 for svr!! praise the LORD!! even though we didn't hit target at the end of day.. it was not like a super big figure... but when i looked back at previous attds and last week's.. i knew it was GOD but nobody else.. i know, as we keep on believing and striving.. the laws of sowing and reaping will remain.. we can't stop here.. the reward is just in front.. ~~
so exciting.. tmr is my 2nd interview.. at recruit express..with the big big boss-director..woo hoo
DayS of XY's LIFE.
4/09/2007 11:17:00 PM
