Friday, May 25, 2007
When things get tough.. especially.. when your self-identity and the minimal self-respect is being challenged.. what do you do? Do you keep your cool, pray in tongues inside your heart.. hoping everything will be over soon.. or do you unleash everything out? blaring what's inside of you..
I'm sorry i chose the latter way.. perhaps both of us are wrong.. i shouldn't have expressed how i feel in the loud and unpleasant way.. but it sure doesn't feel good.. when you are treated like dirt.. out of the mouths of your loved ones.. saying about how lousy you are.. can't accomplish anything great.. etc.. saying that it's love that made them said so.. to do so..
I'm sorry.. i felt like saying out i rather don't want the love you give.. it's too much for me to bear.. perhaps it's what God feels?? the love of the people was too much to bear.. too much that He has to go to the cross.. but the only difference between us is that He bore it.. i can't..
I'm sorry.. to come to the end of the day.. and realised i didn't managed to fulfil what i prayed before the Lord.. at the end of the day, i just realised i am only human.. and that my mind is willing and that my flesh is weak..
oh lord.. more of your grace.. more of your grace.. more of your grace.. like never before..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
5/25/2007 09:49:00 PM
