Friday, August 24, 2007
hmmz.. actually was wondering what to write.. no kidding.. i m really thinking... cause dunnoe whether can just blah out whatever i want to say.. which is a lot.. and un-censored.. haha..
this month has been exciting for me.. in work.. and in church.. yes.. if you are wondering.. wonder no more..i m no longer serving.. not that i m proud to announce this.. but just that i believe pple will hear abt it.. wonder abt it.. and come and ask me questions.. so why not.. here.. i just say it out 1st... There's no good or bad about it.. i m tryin to be as neutral abt it as poss.. which obviously failed.. of cos i cant blurt out the inside stuffs.. but just sayin that i m tryin to re-bounce back.. perhaps i cant go back where i used to be.. but at least i pray i wun be far away from God... no one's fault.. just that something inside me broke.. my limit.. and my job accelerated all these.. perhaps at this stage of life, i am not ready.. when? i dunno.. i m tryin my best not to feel condemned.. not to go to the extreme.. not to be so disturbed by what others tink of me.. cos all these years i've been carryin these burdens.. not that i want to be heartless or hardened.. but then if you are not me.. then i would advise you not to let your feelings go wild.. i can't explain my situation and actual feelings in just a few paragraphs.. my fren said one thing that really encouraged me in a way.. she asked me not to care so much abt what others might tink or say.. cos they are not me.. they are not in my shoes.. and they didn't go thru what i went thru... thanks man.. for acc me to go the special meeting as well.. haha.. long time never met up with HIm.. it sure feels weird.. un-familiar.. but then i m longing for it once again.. somehow feels tired of all the hide and seek.. i just want to be me.. not what others want me to be.. joyce meyers said.. be free.. let go.. guess i hung on too much.. to the extreme..
work was exciting.. esp this month.. tryin to cheong sales.. was stressed in the mid week.. that i became a little zi-bi.. was tryin all kinds of ways to have results.. stay late.. work a little harder.. but then i was still stressed.. and i tot of HIm.. and i decided to leave it in HIs hands.. and phoof.. miracles came.. 2 perm cases in a week.. miracles. i just casually told my mentor that my prayers worked.. and she began to ask me why i became christian since my dad is a medium.. is this so called..opening up a way for gospel?? ^.^ so this is it.. my 1st time of glofyin HIm in my work.. jia you ba.. Ariel.. more excitin days to come..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
8/24/2007 12:20:00 AM
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
my life is like a treadmill blasted at full speed..
everything is running on the contrary..
like a toy car without battery
can't seems to operate anymore..
concerns and space.. which is more relevant?
when you don't understand.. it's really ok.. cos i myself don't too..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
8/14/2007 12:24:00 AM
Saturday, August 04, 2007
surprise.. surprise.. here i am again.. i m able to log in whenever the least i expect it to be.. it's been 2 months since i blogged.. and it feels like 2 years?? a lot of things have happened.. but i no longer wants to share it with the rest.. maybe i'm tired.. maybe i just don't feel like to.. but today i just want to leave something over here.. cos i don't know when is going to be the next time i am able to log in again..
*sorry to those i've hurt directly or indirectly.. i need to let go.. i know things can't be the same again.. but i can't turn back the time as well.. so just let it be.. alright?? don't ask me why things are as they are right now.. cos i don't have the answer as well..
DayS of XY's LIFE.
8/04/2007 11:23:00 PM
